Heidi Klum has avoided talking about the details of her divorce filing from Seal for weeks. Her husband of seven years has been outspoken since they split in January without revealing specifics.
In a new interview, Klum has revealed how the matter is affecting her, and how she continues move forward.
"I feel like I'm in the eye of a tornado," she tells Elle Magazine in its April issue. "Sometimes I think a curve ball just comes at you. Instead of something straight that you can catch, it hits you in the head from the side that you didn't expect."
The 38-year-old model and mother of four also says that things weren't as perfect as it seemed, and the decision was not sudden.
"People don't need to know who did what," she says. "I don't want to talk positively or negatively about the ups and downs that we had. Every couple goes through things. Unfortunately, we're in the public, so the highs are out there. But I don't think it's necessary for - especially for our children - to have the lows being printed in magazines and talked about."
Klum has focused her attention at home, and spending as much time with her children as possible. "I'm a lioness," says Klum. "I have four cubs. I'm a mom. I want to take care of my kids and protect them. I don't want to talk about them, or him, or me."