Tamar Braxton Baby Logan PHOTOS; 'Braxton Family Values' Star Felt Immediately Unattached to Son [VIDEO]
on Jul 31, 2013 10:08 AM EDT
Reality TV star and singer Tamar Braxton recently opened up about her post-baby struggles after giving birth to her son, Logan Vincent Herbert.
In an interview with ABC's Good Morning America, the "Braxton Family Values" star revealed that she didn't immediately fall in love with her baby boy, who is now 2 months old.
"I loved him, you know," she said. "But I wasn't like 'oh, gosh, yes my baby, ooh,' you know. It wasn't that. It was more like what do I do now, you know?"
When asked on whether or not she felt an instant connection to Logan, she expressed her frustration as a first-time mother.
"I guess in a sense I did feel unattached because you know, I really, really wanted to connect with him because I wanted to breast-feed. And when he didn't latch on and when I couldn't produce milk I just felt like, 'Is this the wrong child?' You know what I mean? 'Am I the wrong mother?" she said.
The 36-year-old "Love & War" singer didn't feel depressed, but disappointed.
"You're in shock," she said. "And you know, it took me a few days to really, like, come to terms with the fact that I am a mom and this is my baby."
Braxton often questioned her role as a mother and if it was really meant to be. She admitted that for the first week and a half she didn't change Logan's diaper. Her husband, Vince Herbert took on the duties of changing the baby's pamper.
"Well you know, I was questioning my motherhood. ... Like, is this a mistake that God made? Or like, is this something that I need to hand over to my husband because he and the baby connected instantly. And I wanted that. And I guess I was a little jealous, pretty much. Am I being really honest here? I guess I am," she said.
Now, Braxton is more happier than ever. She's finishing up her upcoming album, starring in two reality shows, including "Tamar & Vince," and hosting a new talk show, "The Real." Despite her busy life, being a mother is her number one job.
"I am very happy. I feel complete ... he is the best thing that ever happened to me," she said, speaking of her son.
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