RuPaul's Drag Race is known for its intense moments of eliminating queens from the race, but rarely do the contestants actually watch it happen to themselves; as it turns out, one of them witnessed this in a live video.

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In a clip published on Monday, Season 6 contestant Reynolds Engelhart who's known as Magnolia Crawford, watches the big moment when it was her time to "sashay away" from the competition. The man behind the queen mentions why he didn't watch what happened to him on stage, mainly because he wanted to have his own kind of memory of it.

"I was honest when I told RuPaul I wanted to remember it for the way I experienced it," Engelhart said. "I didn't want to see editing because editing is rough- really, really, really rough and I remembered it one way and I wanted to keep it that way. And also, I didn't want to see what I missed out on."

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The clip then shows the former contestant's reaction as he watches himself where he lets out random comments, including, "I look like s---" and "I deserved that criticism."

Engelhart then tries to avoid watching the lip-sync battle that he did with Darienne Lake. As he continues to witness the moment where he was eliminated, he genuinely stares at the screen with a solemn look on his face.

When the clip ends, Engelhart mentions that he won't watch it again because he wants to remember it for the way he experienced it- "Not for the way it really was!"

Check out the video HERE.

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