As Bobbi Kristina Brown’s father and family blame Nick Gordon for her tragic passing, Gordon has spoken out about what really happened that day.

Gordon told The Sun why he is not responsible and Bobbi Kristina is.

“I still dream about Krissy like she’s still here,” he said Saturday. “She was too terrified to bathe alone after [her mother] Whitney passed, we both were. It’s why this is so messed up.”

As for the fateful morning Bobbi Kristina was found unconscious in her and Gordon’s bathtub, Gordon broke down that too.

“I had no idea she was in the bath until I heard a friend scream. I raced upstairs and gave her CPR. She wasn’t breathing so I gave her mouth-to-mouth. Three minutes in she spat out some water and that motivated me to keep going. It was the hardest thing I have ever done.”

Gordon added that even though he was worked as a lifeguard in the past, he was not able to help Bobbi Kristina fully recover. He also recounts a similar incident when Bobbi Kristina’s mother, Whitney Houston, died in a bathtub in February of 2012.

“The day Whitney died I was just coming back to the hotel where she was staying when I heard screaming. I ran into her suite. I bent down and tried pushing on her chest but I could tell she was gone, her lips were completely blue,”Gordon said. “Do I wish I could’ve done more? Of course. The guilt is horrible. But to say I was the cause of their deaths just because I was there simply isn’t there.”