"The Real Housewives of New Jersey" couple Joe and Teresa Giudice are no strangers to controversy, but Joe's verbal abuse in a recent episode seems to be ingrained in viewers' minds.

During the incident, Joe called Teresa a "b*tch" and a "c**t" to a woman he was speaking with on his phone.

The New York Times bestselling author gave InTouch magazine an exclusive interview and told her Twitter followers, ""So, this is hopefully my only interview about this and it's from the heart."

But as any "RHONJ" fan knows, the cast has a pretty difficult time letting go of the past (though they frequently say they want to).

Teresa has been reliving a fight that happened a year ago and shares with her fans that it has been anything but easy.

"I was sick. I felt like I'd been kicked in the stomach," she wrote in her "Bravo" blog, explaining how she felt after watching the dispute unfold. "It has not been a good couple of weeks."

The reality star admitted, "Of course I begged Bravo not to air it," but it was no use. "When you sign up for a TV show, you sign up to show everything, warts and all. The good and the bad. Kind of like that other promise: for better or for worse. Welcome to the 'worse.'"

Teresa did her best to give the argument some context explaining some reasons for why Joe became so irate.

Why did he say it? I have no idea. I do know we were in the wine capital of America drinking heavily... Alcohol + camera = not a good idea. ... We were on an 8-day trip in close quarters with people Joe didn't really want to be with. Eight days of nonstop filming is a long, long time. He did have problems with his work back home, and we left our kids behind in a hurricane. I guess it made for the perfect storm in more ways than one.

However, she doesn't condone the vile words that came out of her husband's mouth. "But no matter what the circumstances were, it's not OK that he talked to me like that," she blogged. "It's not OK for our relationship, it's not OK as an example for our daughters, it's not how I want to be spoken to or will be spoken to by anyone."

She insisted that Joe is remorseful for what he said, and has since apologized to her and all of their friends. Teresa went onto explain the actions and behavior of Jersey men.

And to be honest, guys in Jersey aren't the most refined in the world. I look around me and I see other guys treating their women the same as Joe treated me and worse. I don't like it; I don't think any woman does. It's weird that we put up with it when we're so strong and smart in so many other ways. ...I don't really want a guy that acts like a woman. I'd rather not have Joe talk to me like a perfect gentlemen and go to his mistress' apartment every night either.

Teresa went on to say that Joe is a "great dad and a great husband" and tells her fans "we still really like each other."

She concluded the Joe chapter of her post by writing, "People don't stay married for decades without bumps in the road. So this is a pretty big bump, but I'm hanging on. Thank you all for hanging on with me!"

In the interview with In Touch magazine she said, ""I can't defend him on this. I'm hurt by him and disappointed by him."

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