Celebrities | May 12, 2022 08:59 PM EDT

Nick Cordero's Death Still Lingers: Amanda Kloots Grieving, Struggling After Tragic Loss

By Alexandria Reeves

Nick Cordero, Amanda Kloots — (Photo : Mike Coppola/Getty Images)

Amanda Kloots is still struggling and grieving after Nick Cordero's death.

Kloots had to accept the most heartbreaking event in her life when she lost her husband, Cordero, in July 2020. The late Broadway actor died at the age of 41 following his long battle against COVID-19 complications.

Nearly two years since the tragic loss, Kloots opened up about her day-to-day life to her new friend, Kelly Rizzo, who also lost her husband, Bob Saget, in January.

According to the 40-year-old TV personality, dealing with grief is like an onion for her.

"You know how you peel off an onion and it makes you cry? I feel like grief, why it never ends is because we continue going on through life, right? So if you think about it, that's your grief, that onion," she said, as quoted by PEOPLE. "Every time Elvis does something cute and I wish Nick was there to see it, that's like peeling off a layer and it makes you cry."

Kloots noted how she would peel five layers again when Elvis gets married one day.

Far from what people told her, Kloots has been struggling with never-ending grief. Still, she told Rizzo that feeling it is okay as the person would always have a special place in one's heart.

For Kloots, the pain and grief will never go away. Instead, she and other survivors only learn how to grow around those emotions.

Amanda Kloots Says Nick Cordero Is Around Her

Although the Broadway actor is no longer with her physically, the matriarch claimed that she felt that her husband has been staying beside her since his death.

In fact, she asked Cordero to help her when she was having a rough day. When she went to a friend's home with her son, she saw something in the rearview mirror.

"In her yard right by the garage door is a sign - like a yard sign - and it says, 'We,' and then in all capitals the biggest word on the sign: 'BELIEVE,' and then 'that all lives matter,'" she said. "It was a Black Lives Matter sign, but I have a Black Lives Matter sign and mine said 'Black Lives Matter.'"

With that, she believes that Cordero gave it to her after asking for a sign.

Kloots also shared Cordero's presence in her book, "Live Your Life."

Cordero died after losing his long battle against COVID-19. Initially, he underwent leg amputation surgery and was put on a ventilator to support his breathing. Cordero spent months in the intensive care unit at Cedars-Sinai Medical Center before suffering from complications.