2015 was a roller coaster year for Gwen Stefani, and now, the rocker is opening up in ways she never did before about the year that saw her ending the chapter of her life that involved ex-husband Gavin Rossdale and starting the new one with beau Blake Shelton.
In an interview with Harper's Bazaar, Stefani has opened up and discussed whole story behind her divorce, which she kept secret for months, and how she unexpectedly found love again on the set of The Voice, after she and Shelton bonded over their mutual romantic issues, as he also went through his own divorce from Miranda Lambert.
"July 7," she told the magazine about the date her new chapter began. "There I was with my big secret, right? And that's when Blake was like, 'Everybody, before we go out there, I want to let everyone know that by the time this airs, I will be divorced.' [I felt] exposed somehow you know? But it was like being handed this gift of a friend who was going through the exact same thing at the exact same time."
That moment seemed to start changing things for her, after an emotional year which saw her life as she knew it crumble after she discovered that Rossdale had been cheating, allegedly with their children's nanny, Mindy Mann.
"And then it was just like everything flipped," she said. "I went from horrible to, like, hopeful, and like, 'Wow, God, you just don't know what's gonna happen next...it's crazy the support and love I've felt."
As for what had made the previous part of the year so horrible, it wasn't just that she was divorcing, but having to adjust to what that meant in terms of her life changing. After years as a wife and mother to three sons-Kingston, Zuma and Apollo--, she suddenly found herself having to adapt to a new life where she didn't see her kids all of the time, and where she had to deal with the end of her marriage.
"It was the beginning of hell. Like six, seven, eight months of torture, trying to figure out this big secret," she said. "...It was so insane because not only did my family break up, but then my kids are taken away like half the time, so that was really like, 'What?! What did I do?' My dreams were shattered. All I wanted my whole life was to have babies, be married, like what my parents have."