Sarah Paulson isn't shy in admitting that she hopes to finally win that Emmy this year.
Paulson is nominated twice at the Emmys this year. She is nominated for Lead Actress in a Limited Series or Movie for playing Marcia Clark in The People v. O.J. Simpson: American Crime Story as well as Supporting Actress in a Limited Series or Movie for playing Hypodermic Sally in American Horror Story: Hotel.
With two nominations, Paulson's chances of finally winning an Emmy have increased. The actress has previously racked up nominations every year since 2012 for various roles, but she has never taken one home. With all Emmy experts predicting her to get one for The People v. O.J. Simpson, though, she can almost taste the gold.
Paulson just did a video chat with GoldDerby's Marcus Dixon in which she explains her feelings on possibly taking home her first Emmy.
"There's always that little kid in me that practiced speeches in the mirror when I was seven years old and 11 years old and 15 years old, and dreamt about what it would be like and never missed an Emmy Awards!" she admits, as seen in the video below. "So it's not that they give meaning to something that didn't have meaning prior, because at the end of the day, I got to play Marcia Clark. I got to learn something about a woman I had really misguided ideas about, and I got to do that. I got to work with these incredible actors, I got to tell this story. No one can ever take anything - nobody can take that away."
Paulson notes that any award she might get for playing Marcia Clark is "just the icing on the cake." The actress won a TCA (Television Critics Association) Award earlier in the month for Outstanding Individual Achievement in Drama and has been hailed by numerous critics as having one of the best performances of the year.
While many actors and actresses try to play off winning awards like they don't matter, Paulson is not one of those people.
"You can't help but fantasize about it and dream about it and want it," she says in the video. "I think a lot of people try to pretend, because it's probably healthy to not make any of that your business, the winning or losing of awards and it can't mean anything because when if you lose, then it means that your work wasn't good and that can't be what it means. But I sort of like the idea that winning probably feels really good! It's always been a childhood dream of mine. And I'm sure there's also some deep part of me that feels like it would concretize something in terms of my internal feeling about my own self as an actress of like, 'OK, you should be doing this.'"
The 2016 Primetime Emmy Awards will air live Sunday, Sept. 18 at 8 p.m. ET / 5 p.m. PT on ABC.