For the first time ever, fans are getting to see exactly what Kendra Wilkinson has to say about her husband Hank Baskett's affair with a transsexual model.

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The former Playboy Playmate opens up about the scandal in a preview clip for her reality show, Kendra on Top, which premieres in October-and she holds nothing back about how much the news hurt her in the clip.

"Every word that came from the tabloids...boom...boom...boom!" she says in the clip through tears. "When did he do this? While you were eight months pregnant-boom! I'm like, 'Oh my God!'"

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"I feel like I was ...not even a punch, it felt like I was getting shot," she continued. "Our marriage is down the drain."

Though the show won't premiere the new season until October, these are the first official words Wilkinson has spoken about the affair, which saw Baskett pay a total of $2500 to transsexual model Ava Sabrina London to keep quiet after the two met up in April for a sexual encounter.

Though Wilkinson herself has not officially spoken out about the affair, there have been numerous reports citing that she was completely done with her husband, and was only keeping him around temporarily to finish filming for the show out of obligation.

"If it were up to Kendra she's have him out of the house sooner rather than later," a source told TVLN. "She wants Hank out when filming is over, which is just a month or two more. It's only a matter of time."

"Having him there is a constant reminder of everything that's happened," the source added.

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