Stassi Schroeder is being forced to relive the final moments of her romance with former boyfriend Patrick Meagher on the upcoming season of Vanderpump Rules.

Ahead of the season six premiere on Monday night, Schroeder admitted that it wouldn't be easy watching herself interact with her boyfriend following their messy breakup at the end of August.

“I mean, how do you even really prepare for that … I’m just gonna keep drinking,” she said, according to a report.

While Schroeder doesn't necessarily have to watch the new episodes of the show, she said that because she is a “masochist," she is planning to watch.

“I think he’s a wonderful person, he’s just not my person,” she continued. “I spend two weeks [being] inconsolable. I feel every feeling, I sob, I cry, I’m a bit of a degenerate. And then after those two weeks it’s like, ‘Okay, this is what it is. I allowed myself to really feel everything. Really grieve’ and then [I] move on.”

Following their breakup in August, Schroeder was extremely public about the fact that she was completely devastated by her four-year romance coming to such an abrupt and painful end — on their anniversary, nonetheless. She was also public with the fact that she ultimately moved on from the relationship and got back into the dating game in Los Angeles.

“Yeah, I’ve dated a bit and I’m having fun. I like it. I’m meeting people that I’m attracted to and now I’m getting bashful,” she said, adding that there is “nothing serious” going on between her and the people she's seeing.

Schroeder's relationship with Meagher began four years ago after the reality star filmed the second season of Vanderpump Rules. However, during the three seasons that followed, Schroeder chose to keep her romance off-screen. Then, in July of this year, as filming continued on season six, she finally introduced her man to the cameras.

For more of Stassi Schroeder and her co-stars, including Jax Taylor, Scheana Marie, Lisa Vanderpump, Katie Maloney, Lala Kent, Tom Sandoval, Kristen Doute, Tom Schwartz, and James Kennedy, don’t miss the sixth season of Vanderpump Rules on Monday nights at 9 p.m. on Bravo TV.